Stay-at-Home Mom

So, my journey as a stay-at-home mother will begin at the beginning of September instead of the end of October. Doctor’s orders have a way of changing things, so for the duration of my pregnancy with my baby boy, I’ll be home having fun with my daughter, freaking out about where everything is going to go in the apartment, and pouring over Crockpot recipes to figure out which one I’ll finally make first.

Granted, all of this is happening sooner than expected, and yes, I’m totally freaking out about it, but I’m also really happy and excited. I have to trust God in this next chapter in life. I don’t know what the future holds, but I do know Who holds that future, so with that knowledge alone, I know my family and I will be okay! We will be more than okay, even when we don’t feel like we are.

I’ll have to get into a new rhythm once I have my weekends back. Instead of leaving for work at six in the evening every Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, I’ll be eating dinner with my family and getting my daughter ready for bed. Instead of sleeping half the day on Saturday, Sunday, and Monday, I’ll be up and cooking breakfast for my family or negotiating with my daughter as to why she can’t have pudding for breakfast. Not coming home at seven in the morning on Sundays means I can start going back to church and that is something I’m very excited about.

Getting used to not bringing in an income on a regular basis is also something I will have to adjust to as well. I have to realize that my worth and value are not tied to a paycheck. Being home with my family and making sure they are taken care of is important to me. Also, I can look for ways to become more creative from home, which shouldn’t be too hard with a toddler.

Life as I know it is about to become more interesting. And I’m looking forward to every moment of it!

Ideas and More Ideas

So, right now there are many ideas flowing through my head of how I can branch out with my writing. Which has me very excited! I’m going to stop being so scared of the ideas that come to me. I’m going to stop killing the possibility of what those ideas can become before I even do anything with them. I’m working on not being my own enemy and letting doubt get the better of me.

Right now I currently have to “series” that I’m working on. The first one is Thank You and the second one is Quotable Ponderings. Neither one of these will be extremely long series, but working out the ideas of doing series for my blog has kept my mind engaged on expressing my writing in different ways. I have to keep creating which is the point of this entire process. I don’t want my bread and butter to merely be poetry.

I’m working through my doubts and fears. I’m going to get much better about working my ideas into something more. I want to see my ideas come to life. And the only person who can make that happen is me. Here’s to getting better as a writer.