Turning Points

Lately, life hasn’t been working out the way I would like for it to. And naturally, it’s easy to look at the worst, but today I realized that life isn’t working out the way I want it to for the best. A lot has been happening that isn’t allowing me to get comfortable. With comfort comes complacency and motivation can become very hard to obtain.

I have the time (in between wrangling two children) to work on the creative endeavors I have been wanting to get to now. It’s the starting point where it’s important to not be discouraged, but to keep working every single day towards the one thing I want the most. And that is to be my own boss. It’s hard work, but it allows me to generate an income doing what I love and lets me spend time with my children. I set my schedule, instead of others setting it for me.

I have the time to read and write and create. Sure, I have to squeeze that time in between taking care of Savannah and Austin, but I have the time. I’m beginning to see the positives and that is making all the difference.

That’s all for this post! I’ll try and have something more elaborate later!

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The Creative Just Got Real!

Matt is by far the best husband!!! Lately I’ve completely taken over the dining room to work on my various art projects. And it’s become a bit of a pain, just kidding, it’s become a massive pain having my art supplies all over the place and trying to keep a section of the table clean for Savannah! So the solution to this creative problem was to get more creative! Matt suggested taking a section of our bedroom and turning it into my makeshift art studio. Apparently he made this suggestion when I was pregnant with Austin, but courtesy of pregnancy brain, I don’t remember.

Anyway, I had to purge myself of a lot of books to make part of this project happen! But that’s what libraries are for, right? Feed the reading habit without books taking over such a tiny space! And in the process of becoming more organized for this work space, I really have to examine what I do and don’t need. For example, I have at least fifteen black Sharpies. I don’t need that many and most of them are a carry over from my days as a Starbucks partner. So getting rid of little things like that surprisingly make a big difference in attaining more space of what I do need! I’m still working on convincing myself that I need to keep certain things because I’ll eventually use them. Nope, I have to stick to my new rule with stuff for 2019: “If it ain’t being used and it ain’t getting used, give it away!”

It’s going to be nice having a designated work space for my art and my writing! I’m looking forward to my biggest concern being paint on the wall or carpet and not Savannah potentially grabbing something she shouldn’t. Which, I’ll give her credit for a two-year-old, she doesn’t care to mess with paint! It’s too messy for her liking! But like I was saying, it’ll be nice to close the door (when Matt’s home), watch painting tutorials on YouTube (I prefer that to reading), and get better at painting with acrylics and watercolors. I don’t plan on making this creative endeavor my sole source of income, but I would like for it to be a paid hobby! I just like to create and more than that, I’m glad we found a space in our 972 square foot apartment for me to do that and be able to spread out a bit! Even if it is in the master bedroom!

So here’s to an awesome husband and to being more creative!

A New Year of Writing

Well, it’s a new year. Fourteen days into a new year and I’m finally sitting down to do some serious writing. Well, as serious as my mood will allow me to be. There are a lot of words in me that I would like to get down on paper or typed. It’s been a bit difficult though because I’ve been adjusting to life with two children. And at this point, I would much rather sleep than write. But I’m kid free for the next couple of days, so I’m going to enjoy the opportunity to work on some creative endeavors.

I probably won’t accomplish it, but I probably will, but I would like to get some kind of writing going on a novel. Or even finish the couple I attempted last year, but failed at because well, pregnancy. No more pregnancies though. So life as I know it will gradually fall into a rhythm that will allow me to write more!

Right now, my writing is crap. I’m definitely out of practice and I’m okay with that. It’s motivation to make time to write, even while balancing life with Savannah and Austin.

This will be a year of writing for me. Writing and reading as well because the more I read, the more I want to write.

Okay, I’m done babbling in this post. Maybe the next one will be better!

Random Thoughts: The End of NaNoWriMo

So yeah, I definitely stopped participating in National Novel Writing Month…about four days ago. And I was super excited about it, but it just didn’t feel right. I quickly realized that my focus was being pulled away from other writing projects that I would like to pursue. And I battled with the idea of stopping or continuing, but after weighing my options, NaNoWriMo just wasn’t in the cards this year.

Also, it was pulling my focus away from Savannah. I want to spend as much time as possible with her before her baby brother arrives and life changes as we know it, for the better, but with a hectic start.

The reality is, I can work on a novel any time of the year.

 

Random Thought: Just Wing It

                       

patrick-fore-381200-unsplashWell it’s official, I’m not going to succeed at NaNoWriMo doing the whole planning and outlining thing. I had it all set up. I had a game plan. And then my brain was like “Nope, not gonna work!” So I’m going to do what I did last year, take my idea and work it out one written word at a time.

If I’m going to be successful with NaNoWriMo two years in a row, then I have to stay true to who I am as a first draft writer. No planning out the idea. Just taking the idea and running with it. I know what my end goal is. Obviously, it’s 50,000 words in a month. But it’s also to complete the first draft, so that I’ll have a foundation for the second draft.

Write the crap. Then clean the crap up. That appears to be my modus operandi when writing!

 

Switching Things Up

So, in light of not taking myself too seriously and relaxing more with my writing, I’ve decided to stop using Times New Roman all the time for my font when writing. It’s becoming very boring and routine. I’m tired of being a creature of habit. I mean some habits are good, but then some habits are dumb and I have a propensity to create some very dumb habits. I like putting weird expectations on myself and looking back, it makes being creative less fun. The best part of creating is having fun!

Another thing I’m planning on working on is getting better about not placing unnecessary expectations on myself. If I don’t complete the task I set out for the day, I’m going to be okay. I haven’t died yet from an incomplete art project or half-written blog post and I doubt I ever will. I’ll just stop acting like death is around the corner because I didn’t complete the task. The stark reality is, I have a two-year-old to keep alive and she’s pretty hellbent on killing herself every single day, so my plate is pretty full. Things take time, like greatness! Again, I’ll be okay!

If something isn’t broken, don’t worry about trying to fix it. But if it is broken, and repairs can be made, then make the repairs and come out better for it in the end. At least that’s the lesson for myself.

 

Blogging Milestone

                                                                                                                                                                       adi-goldstein-717516-unsplashYesterday, I reached 100 followers!!!! Yay me! I set that at as goal at the beginning of the year, but didn’t think I would actually achieve it! Maybe I should have more confidence in myself. I guess the next big goal is 101 followers and then I’ll just take it one follower at a time. But in having achieved 100 followers, I’m seeing that it’s definitely important for me to start investing more in my writing. So, I will. I mean, I’ve figured out a style that I’m comfortable with in my writing. I call it “random as hell”, but really it’s conversational. Anyone who’s had a conversation with me knows, I can be pretty random!

I fully intend to invest in my craft more. I’m also going to stop forcing posts. I always want to try and have a post for every day, but the reality is, that doesn’t always work out in my favor. Now, my daughter is gone with her grandparents for the next few days, so I’ll definitely have the opportunity to crank out some posts and get them prepped and ready to go.

I’m proud of this achievement and thank you to my followers for making this achievement happen! There’s much more to come from me in the future.

 

Fall Into Place

I’ve recently come to two conclusions…

The first conclusion is now that I’m a stay-at-home mom, I don’t ever want to have to punch on to somebody else’s time clock. And as a result of that first conclusion, the second conclusion is that I need to work extra hard on that which God has created me to love. 

tom-holmes-556809-unsplashI am passionate about writing, photography, and art. And I am passionate about travel. It’s time to stop being afraid of doing and actually start doing. I’m not living my life if I’m just sitting on the sidelines waiting for everything to perfectly fall into place.

Life would definitely be much more fulfilling for me, if I stopped being afraid of mistakes, shortcomings, setbacks, and the opinions of others. Life would be much more adventurous if I stop waiting for the right moment and just create the right moment. Sure, I have a two-year-old daughter and another one due in December, but they can come along on the adventures. I have to stop using motherhood as an excuse to stay home all the time and not go anywhere or do anything. I also have to stop waiting for my toddler to be 100% cooperative before we get ready to go anywhere as well.

I can take the easy route and wait for things to fall into place before I just get up and go and start doing things. But I’ve been taking that route for awhile and nothing that was truly amazing has come of it. So now is the time to take the road less traveled and start making things happen. If I want an adventure, then I simply need to start taking an adventure!

 

All For Nothing

So, I’m having one of those lovely days where everything feels stupid. I feel like any and everything I’ve done with my writing is for nothing. I just want to stay in bed, put the covers over my head, and give up.

But life doesn’t work like that. Everything I’m doing will one day pay off. That’s what I have to remember. I can’t let a perfectly beautiful day escape me. I can’t ignore the opportunity to add more to a novel. I can’t let the chance to brainstorm a new idea go to waste. I have to keep going, especially on the days I just don’t want to. None of the words seem right, but it’s something written to be edited on another day.

So today sucks. But I’m alive. I’m drinking good coffee. I’m blessed with an opportunity to do some crappy writing. And I have a loving husband and spunky toddler waiting for me when I get home! All is well in the end. Regardless of what my feelings are trying to get me to believe.

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