I’ve recently come to two conclusions…
The first conclusion is now that I’m a stay-at-home mom, I don’t ever want to have to punch on to somebody else’s time clock. And as a result of that first conclusion, the second conclusion is that I need to work extra hard on that which God has created me to love.
I am passionate about writing, photography, and art. And I am passionate about travel. It’s time to stop being afraid of doing and actually start doing. I’m not living my life if I’m just sitting on the sidelines waiting for everything to perfectly fall into place.
Life would definitely be much more fulfilling for me, if I stopped being afraid of mistakes, shortcomings, setbacks, and the opinions of others. Life would be much more adventurous if I stop waiting for the right moment and just create the right moment. Sure, I have a two-year-old daughter and another one due in December, but they can come along on the adventures. I have to stop using motherhood as an excuse to stay home all the time and not go anywhere or do anything. I also have to stop waiting for my toddler to be 100% cooperative before we get ready to go anywhere as well.
I can take the easy route and wait for things to fall into place before I just get up and go and start doing things. But I’ve been taking that route for awhile and nothing that was truly amazing has come of it. So now is the time to take the road less traveled and start making things happen. If I want an adventure, then I simply need to start taking an adventure!
So, my journey as a stay-at-home mother will begin at the beginning of September instead of the end of October. Doctor’s orders have a way of changing things, so for the duration of my pregnancy with my baby boy, I’ll be home having fun with my daughter, freaking out about where everything is going to go in the apartment, and pouring over Crockpot recipes to figure out which one I’ll finally make first.
Granted, all of this is happening sooner than expected, and yes, I’m totally freaking out about it, but I’m also really happy and excited. I have to trust God in this next chapter in life. I don’t know what the future holds, but I do know Who holds that future, so with that knowledge alone, I know my family and I will be okay! We will be more than okay, even when we don’t feel like we are.
I’ll have to get into a new rhythm once I have my weekends back. Instead of leaving for work at six in the evening every Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, I’ll be eating dinner with my family and getting my daughter ready for bed. Instead of sleeping half the day on Saturday, Sunday, and Monday, I’ll be up and cooking breakfast for my family or negotiating with my daughter as to why she can’t have pudding for breakfast. Not coming home at seven in the morning on Sundays means I can start going back to church and that is something I’m very excited about.
Getting used to not bringing in an income on a regular basis is also something I will have to adjust to as well. I have to realize that my worth and value are not tied to a paycheck. Being home with my family and making sure they are taken care of is important to me. Also, I can look for ways to become more creative from home, which shouldn’t be too hard with a toddler.
Life as I know it is about to become more interesting. And I’m looking forward to every moment of it!
At the present moment I’m in a car heading to Southern Alabama with my family! We’re going to spend a little over a week with my mother, which excites me because I haven’t seen her since Christmas. And this is our first family trip so that also adds to the excitement!
To my surprise, and my husband’s, our tiny tot is doing very well being in her car seat for an extended period of time. She won’t take a nap, but she’s also not pitching a fit, so it’s an overall win! She’ll just have her meltdown once we get to my mom’s.
Now, I haven’t exactly decided if I’m going to write vacation based posts or stay on schedule and work on Operation Poetry Translation! I might just do both!
So, I recently participated in my first 5k. I have never trained for anything like this. I don’t even run unless food is involved or I’m keeping my toddler from succeeding at her next daredevil stunt. But I did it. I had a team. And they were awesome. It’s often said that a team is only as strong as its weakest link. And I was the weak link. They carried me. Literally, I rode in the basket for at least a mile and ran/walked the rest. And we came in second! I slightly lost my voice and my body ached like crazy. But it was a major milestone for me. It was part of living a good story. I even hit 25,000 steps on my Fitbit in the same day!
Participating in a 5k that I have never trained for and was asked to join like two days prior to the event was a great experience. Not to mention I worked all night before. But this experience taught me that anything is possible when I put my mind to it. And having a support system definitely makes achieving goals easier to attain. And finishing something I never thought I could, it’s a marvelous feeling! I honestly want to participate in another 5k, but this time with some training.
The word “can’t” is going to become limited in my vocabulary. It always seems like something can’t be done until it’s done!
How often do we say we want to do something and never do it?
How often does opportunity come along for us to do something awesome and we come up with reasons not to do it?
One of my favorite books is by Donald Miller. It’s called A Million Miles in a Thousand Years. (If you want to know what it’s about, I suggest you read it!). Anyway, there’s a line in the book that says “live a good story”. I don’t remember what page, but those four words made a difference for me. I’ve sucked at it lately, but I’m making that transition again into living a good story. I come up with too many excuses and I’m simply left with another boring day in the books. What really comes of playing small? What really comes of always playing it safe?
I want to do more. Not just for myself and by myself, but with my husband and daughter and family and friends. The only person who really says we cannot do something is ourselves. I’m my biggest obstacle and I’m learning to simply get out of my way. If I want to do something, I need to figure out a way to get it done. I can’t write about experiences if I don’t have any.
It’s time to stop being boring and start having fun again.
It’s time to add some exciting chapters to the story of my life!